Lost. I have had literally the craziest turn of events in the past few weeks that I’ve even had to take a step back from blogging. Now of course (since I’m a happy go lucky person) I try to make the best out of every situation because hey I’m alive! So, what has happened? Let … Continue reading Where Have I Been Lately?!?!
Now, we left off with how my (first) ex’s family did nothing to prevent the abuse, unfortunately my second ex’s family was no different. Here’s his family in a nutshell… His father, made lots of money, never cooked, never cleaned, was the “man” (A.k.a BOSS) of the household, and had a tragic upbringing. His mother … Continue reading Both of My Ex-Boyfriend’s Family’s KNEW About the Abuse!!! (PART TWO)
Yes, sad as it sounds, this is true. In both situations (my first abuser and second) both families knew about the abuse yet, did absolutely nothing. This awful incident not only happened with my first ex but also my second. Talk about a double whammy! This story is so insane that I had to break … Continue reading Both of My Ex-Boyfriend’s Family’s KNEW About the Abuse!!! (PART ONE)
My stomach dropped. My heart racing out of my chest. A gold Magnum condom wrapper, opened. Empty. Laid underneath my bed. I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t know what to do. I just stood there with this “Deer in headlights” look on my face. My boyfriend staring at me, rage and disbelief in … Continue reading My Boyfriend Found a Condom Under Our Bed… And We DON’T Use Condoms
The only thing running through my head the entire time was… “What if we get caught stealing?” My stomach growling, skin bruised, mind and soul hungry for food... I sat there in the parking lot trying to mentally prepare myself. I had stolen in the seventh grade once. Back then I didn’t steal something I … Continue reading Getting Caught Stealing with my Abusive Ex-Boyfriend!
Now before I begin I want to make something very clear. Although in this post I may say a little joke or two here and there, suicide and suicide attempts are not a joke or laughing matter. If you or anyone you know is showing any signs of attempting suicide, take it serious and intervene … Continue reading My Ex-Boyfriend Tried Killing Himself When I Broke Up With Him!
"Are you sure you have PTSD, you look normal to me?" “You can’t be experiencing PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) symptoms. You need to experience something traumatic.” “It wasn’t that traumatic” These are all things said to me by my family members when I would discuss my past in domestic violence. Some “family” right? This … Continue reading My Family Doesn’t Take My Abuse Seriously…
Sounds like a nightmare, right? Being in a relationship with someone you’re not physically attracted to… that was me! Yet, of course I couldn’t be attracted to someone who is abusive towards me, who tells me how ugly I am, how I should be lucky to have him, who destroys all the things I love … Continue reading My Boyfriend Doesn’t Turn Me On Sexually…
Let’s just say it wasn’t the last. It’s a day I will never forget. We were together for about three weeks. He immediately would ask to “see my phone” the second we would see each other to “use it” (he had a phone of his own, yet it miraculously would stop working the second I … Continue reading The First Time He Hit Me
There I was… facing a loaded black 22. Never in my life had I been in the front of a gun. I’m standing in the room, my back against the wall. He began to press the gun deep into my forehead. He’s angry, chain smoking cigarettes back to back blowing smoke into my face with … Continue reading My Ex Put a Loaded Gun to My Head!!